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Aku tulis sajak ini kerana cintanya aku pada teman-teman di jalan dakwah dan tarbiyah ini. Saat mendengar rajuk teman menjadikan dia tawar hati dan ragu pada jalan dakwah, perasaanku gusar. Setelah melihat beberapa yang mengundur diri atau minta untuk direhatkan, aku tidak sanggup melihat ia berlaku lagi. Aku cinta pada setiap satu maka aku harapkan ketabahan dan kesabaran pada hati tiap jundi dakwah ini.  Hai teman, andai pernah kamu terasa kecewa dengan dakwah, jemaah atau ukhuwah, muhasabahlah. Sesungguhnya ia sebahagian dari kemanusiaan dakwah dan jemaah. Ukhuwah tidak akan manis melainkan kita yang memaniskan. Dan selemah-lemah ukhuwah adalah berlapang dada. Setinggi-tingginya adalah itsar. Nikmat manis ukhuwah bukan percuma, tapi ia kurniaan. Andai engkau tidak merasainya, redhalah bahawa Tuhan belum menginginkannya untukmu. Rendah hatilah pada Yang Esa, moga kedamaian dalam cinta kepadanya membawa kamu kepada merasa manisnya madu ukhuwah fillah.  ******************...

Hujung minggu yang lepas, aku berkesempatan hiking di sekitar Ingleton Waterfall trail, Yorkshire. It was amazing. And most importantly, I felt so blessed that He permitted me to visit the place and hear the calming sounds of flowing water between limestone and rocks. I nearly cancelled the trip caused the weather forecast said it was going to be rainy and I was a bit unhappy to have the trip in a bad weather. But to be a honest, that was only because I was worried that others might not be pleased with it and the trip would not be fun. Interestingly one of my friends was so excited so we decided to go.  The place was wonderful. I wanted to share an ayah during the trip but it did not happen for some reason. Yet I am pleased with what ALLAH had given me.  Aku cuba mengiringi setiap langkahku dengan istighfar dan ketundukan hati. Menundukkan hati saat menghayati kebesaran ciptaan Tuhan. Indah yang tiada manusia mampu ciptakan. Saat berada di puncak, itu kegemar...

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Bismillah, I know it is not right to be too expressive on the web, behind the scene. Talking about feelings and problems.. blablabla. I am sorry for this, but just need to talk about things, but just don't know how and whom and when and where and those kinda stuff. Things have been a bit all over the place. But it is not actually things that have been all over. It is me. I guess. There's disappointment topped up with anger occupying my heart at the moment. I hate it when both of these feelings get into my life. I feel restless and unsettled. I get irritable easily. I just wanted to keep calm and cool. Not being able to do so makes me more disappointed. I just want to keep smiling regardless of how hard rough and hard is treating me. That will keep me positive and calm. Keeping my head straight and proud. But this time I know Something have crossed its line. Has it? Probably it is just in my justification. Ya Allah, having such feelings in my heart is really ruining my ser...

Ini salah satu kisah favoritku, gak bosen berkali-kali bacanya. Jujur kalau baca kisah sangat menyentuh tentang Bilal saat Nabi Muhammad SAW meninggal ini, air mataku ngalir terus hehe. Apalagi sambil dengerin lagunya Maher Zain - The Chosen One. Walah :’)         Pada waktu dhuha di hari Senin 12 Rabi’ul Awal 11 H (hari wafatnya Rasulullah shalallahu alaihi wasallam) masuklah putri beliau Fathimah radhiyallahu anha ke dalam kamar Rasulullah shalallahu alaihi wasallam, lalu dia menangis saat masuk kamar Rasulullah Shalallahu ‘Alaihi Wassalam. Dia menangis karena biasanya setiap kali dia masuk menemui Rasullullah Shalallahu ‘Alaihi Wassalam, beliau berdiri dan menciumnya di antara kedua matanya, akan tetapi sekarang beliau tidak mampu berdiri untuknya. Maka Rasulullah Shalallahu ‘Alaihi Wassalam bersabda kepadanya: ”Mendekatlah kemari wahai Fathimah.” Beliaupun membisikkan sesuatu di telinganya, maka dia pun menangis. Kemudian beliau bersabda...

Terkadang datang waktu Kita melihat kembali saat yang telah berlalu  Merenung, mengira kehilangan satu persatu Pedih, perit datang bertalu Ah, itulah manusia yang syukurnya tiada pernah padu Sedang tiap saat padahalnya dipenuhi barakah beribu Malu Tidakkah kita malu? Dan syukur itu,  Andai memenuhi kalbu Kita takkan pernah 'kan rasa sendu berlagu Kekosongan tidak 'kan terusan menyebu Kita pasti 'kan diulit kasih yang merdu Pada Dia Yang Satu Kita pasti 'kan gegas ingin sujud padaNya selalu Kerana Dia senantiasa menunggu Menunggu doa kita dengan penuh rindu Wahai hambaKu, berdoalah padaKu Aku ingin mendengar rintih jujur darimu Tahulah wahai hambaKu CintaKu, ampunKu Lebih hebat dan luas dari murkaKu Hanya sahaja pilihan itu Terletak pada lembutnya hatimu sebagai hambaKu Kembalilah engkau padaKu dan hadapkanlah wajahMu sepenuhnya padaKu sehingga Aku redha padaMu dan engkau redha padaKu Kemenangan, kebahagiaan, kesempurnaan, ketenangan dan segalanya pasti 'ka...

The Pleiades, also known as the Seven Sisters, is a cluster of stars; ignoring the complicated astronomical explanation, these are simply a cluster of bright shining stars known to many cultures all around the world. In Arabic it is called thurayya. My second name and I am glad that my mom, including my dad, named me with it. A name with prayer that motivates and inspires me a lot. عين الثريا The eye of the Seven Stars. The shines of the bright shining star. Just now, another sister left the land. She dropped me a text before she left,  "Dr Suraya..(bla bla bla).., a shining bright star bla bla bla" I take that as a dua akak. Jazakillah khayran. You made me love my parents more and you made me appreciate myself more and you woke up the ruh in me to see and wish for the bright future ahead. I hope ALLAH will allow me to be one of the stars that can help people to find the way to the Haqqan Guiding Stars which is the Quran.  ALLAH's promise...