Thursday, February 25

Nota usrah Kahfi

Adik-adik usrah dah makin matang
Maafkan kita kalau hak antunna tak terjaga
Maafkan kita kalau kita lalai dalam menunjukkan jalan untuk antunna

Tuesday, February 23

Types of friendships

Types of friendships - choose the type we want to be, Allah will then send the ones you need.
1. Waliy - the protector = a friend who is there and protects you
* described together with hameem = waliyyun hameem (hameem - heat and warmth)
* Hameem - heat and warmth = somebody that makes you feel comfortable and warm in their presence
2. Sodiq - truthful = genuine friend; not being friends with an agenda; truthful = not deceivingly friendly
* also has been described together with hameem = sodiiqun hameem
3. Sohib - someone sitting next to you eg. somebody sitting next to you in your journey/train (casual acquaintance) ; but it can also be somebody who is always there with you. sohib carries the value of wanting something good for you, has genuine concern for your benefit, cares for you.
if you want to be the sohib for ummah, sohib for the society - makes the 'normal' celebrated not the luxurious (standards - deceiving fashion, materials)
4. Walijah - 'to enter quite deeply' =
5. Bitanah - somebody who can keep the secret
6. Khazul (-ve) - a friend who only acts as a friend until the time reveals the real value; extremely disappointing and deceptive, used in Quran to describe the quality of 'friendship' offered by syaitan. there with you only during good times but away when you are in need.
7. Khadan - a friend you are attracted to, has the possibility of being attracted to..
8. Qarin - qaran = rope used to tie two camels together, allowing them to move side by side => qarin is a friend you always hangout with (macam belangkas), has a lot in common with. you can't tie two camels that are too different from each other- height, speed..
you can have good qarin, or bad qarin = a true friend can still be sodiq but not qarin.
some of the people of jannah, were almost become the people of hellfire - but they give up certain kinds of company. their sincerety remained but they know 'always being together'/ the company of the certain person is not worth it (for hereafter) - some people has the maturity and strength to loosen the relationship/ attachment and this 'maturity and strength' might be the factor differentiating the people of jannah and people of hellfire.
* so watch out who your CONSTANT friends are, friends who you always talk to, spend time with..
*** The best two types of friends mentioned in the Quran:
9. KHALEEL - khullah = someone/friendship that penetrates deep into your have a deep seeded love for someone that you care so much and miss so much when you are not with them.
but closed friends in the world that have strong love towards each other, can be enemies in the akhirat (if the friendship not for the right reason):
“al akhillahu yawma izzin b’aduhum liba’adin adu’u illal muttakeen”
(those friends with strong love towards each other will become enemies to each other except for those who fear ALLAH)
once we choose the wrong khaleel- in the akhirat, even we have such deep seeded love towards them in the world, because we are so regretful of having them as friends in this world and regret it so much, we could not even remember their names - not even wanting to menton their names. as the situation described in the Quran : (QS 25 Al Furqon: 27-29)
وَيَوْمَ تَشَقَّقُ السَّمَاءُ بِالْغَمَامِ وَنُزِّلَ الْمَلَائِكَةُ تَنزِيلًا ﴿٢٥﴾ الْمُلْكُ يَوْمَئِذٍ الْحَقُّ لِلرَّحْمَـٰنِ ۚ وَكَانَ يَوْمًا عَلَى الْكَافِرِينَ عَسِيرًا ﴿٢٦﴾ وَيَوْمَ يَعَضُّ الظَّالِمُ عَلَىٰ يَدَيْهِ يَقُولُ يَا لَيْتَنِي اتَّخَذْتُ مَعَ الرَّسُولِ سَبِيلًا ﴿٢٧﴾ يَا وَيْلَتَىٰ لَيْتَنِي لَمْ أَتَّخِذْ فُلَانًا خَلِيلًا ﴿٢٨﴾ لَّقَدْ أَضَلَّنِي عَنِ الذِّكْرِ بَعْدَ إِذْ جَاءَنِي ۗ وَكَانَ الشَّيْطَانُ لِلْإِنسَانِ خَذُولًا ﴿٢٩﴾
And [mention] the Day when the heaven will split open with [emerging] clouds, and the angels will be sent down in successive descent. (25) True sovereignty, that Day, is for the Most Merciful. And it will be upon the disbelievers a difficult Day. (26) And the Day the wrongdoer will bite on his hands [in regret] he will say, "Oh, I wish I had taken with the Messenger a way. (27) Oh, woe to me! I wish I had not taken THAT ONE (fulan) as a friend. (28) He led me away from the remembrance after it had come to me. And ever is Satan, to man, a deserter." (29)
10. RAFEEQ - rifqah = comfort; mirfaqah - small cushion that helps you relax; rafeeq are friends whom when you go to them (casually) you find comfort. people that you don't have to act certain way in front of them.
And whoever obeys Allah and the Messenger - those will be with the ones upon whom Allah has bestowed favor of the prophets, the steadfast affirmers of truth, the martyrs and the righteous. And excellent are those as companions.
وَمَن يُطِعِ اللَّـهَ وَالرَّ‌سُولَ فَأُولَـٰئِكَ مَعَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمَ اللَّـهُ عَلَيْهِم مِّنَ النَّبِيِّينَ وَالصِّدِّيقِينَ وَالشُّهَدَاءِ وَالصَّالِحِينَ ۚ وَحَسُنَ أُولَـٰئِكَ رَ‌فِيقًا
Surat An-Nisa' (4:69)
وَالَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ لَنُدْخِلَنَّهُمْ فِي الصَّالِحِينَ ﴿٩﴾
And those who believe and do righteous deeds - We will surely admit them among the righteous [into Paradise]. (29:9)
We may lose people/friends but if we keep believing and steadfast in iman, He will surely put us among those who are righteous. Friends of the best company.
* Deeply loved friends can be enemies in akhirat EXCEPT for those who are muttaqeen.

Tuesday, April 7

30 days to FINALS


Today I decided to write a little bit about this final journey of medical school, everyday. One of the reasons is because I think I need to let go some of my worries. But I do not want to talk over it to much so that I would not whine to much. So I'll talk to the wall of this blogger.

It is the 3rd day of group discussion. We have been going through core conditions for the past two days, which I was happy with it. But one of us came over during the discussion and suggested that we do not focus only on preparing for the written exams as OSCE is something that deserves great attention as well from us. I do agree. I was a bit scared when I heard that cause OSCE has always been my biggest worry when it comes to exams. Going through the past exams and OSCE books I am worried. Could not really make up my mind on what to read now. Oh ALLAH, please keep me calm and guide us in our preparation. We really need your blessings.


Wednesday, March 18

Discover Your Deen - Sempat transcribed

Sometimes ALLAH opens the door of opportunity but you refuse to walk through it. He opened it and you could have reaped a lot of reward from it, but you choose not walk through it and then you end up suffering; and then you end up blaming ALLAH instead.
So now, if this is the case; everyone has a different lot in life –  a different set of challenges, a different set of opportunity, so the question is why? Why not all of us have the same thing? Why not all of us have the same challenges? – make it consistent.
Next ayah (17:84) answers the question (why not all of us have the same set of challenges and reward?)
Qul kullun ya’ malu ala syaakilatihi
“Tell them, everyone should try to work”
(When a mudhaari’ becomes a sifat, it actually means trying to do something)
Everybody should try to work on their syaakilah.
(Syaakil = form;  appearance of something or a mould of something. The shape of something)
In figurative meaning, (Psychological terminology = your predisposition) you are pre-programmed to certain way; some people have a very good sense of humour, some people are very serious, some people are oriented towards science, others are towards literature, some are very artistic.. etc.
People have different personality- different syaakilat.
Allah says, everybody first of all need to recognise their personality- and then work in accordance with that. In other word, syaakilah (with ta marbutah at the end), makes it actually a marra’- an individual thing. No two people have the same syaakilah. Allah makes personality very, very, very different. Everybody should try to figure out what their personality is like- as much as they can. And in accordance with that, try to figure out what is the most that they can make out of their opportunities. What are the challenges in their personality and what are the shortcomings they have and how can they over some them.
This is a very powerful concept at an individual level; but it is so powerful that ALLAH, in other place in Quran, even describe this at a level of nation (Syu’uuban).
Syuuban li ta’arafu.
Syu’uuban comes from the word sya’ab or syu’bah – meaning a dent or a crack in a wall. An imperfection. As if to say that every nation has some good qualities but also some quirks.
Nations have to get to know each other so that they can learn from each other’s strengths. One nation’s strength is another nation’s weakness, and one nation’s weakness is another nation’s strength. (eg; nation eating practice or diet) This is at the level of nation.
But even at the level of individual, if someone is able to recognise their weaknesses then they are able to make connections, make friends- put themselves around people that can put/ cover that weakness. If you surrounds yourself with people that have the same weaknesses with you; they have same problem as you- (eg 1) if you have a terrible sense of humour, you have no restrictions on your sense of humour, and you become friends with people who also have no breaks in their sense of humour, not very good thing will come out of that relationship. May be someone in this relationship should be able to stop- know when it is enough. (eg 2) if everybody is super serious, that is a very depressing life.
You need somebody to stir things up.
Qul kullun ya’ malu ala syaakilatihi
In terms of deen, (In terms of what ALLAH wants you to do with your life) everybody, instead of complaining – or you only get happy when good things happen and super depressed when bad things happen – the reality of it is, each of you will have your share of good and bad in this world and you need to make the most out of your personality; your syaakilah.
                Fa rabbukum a’lamu, fa man hua ahdaa sabiila.
                (He knows who is more guided, in terms of the path)
(Sabiilan – not as-sabila (singular/specific path): sabillan is a tamyiz in terms of a path- suggesting that every one of us will have a course, a path. Depending on our syaakilah)
This raise another question; where do all these personalities come from? How come we have different personalities? – eg in psychology, they study genetic twins. One’s favourite colour is blue and the other favourite colour is purple. They can’t figure this out – (because) genetically there are the same. (They can’t understand this because) Some argue that your personality is the product of your gene and your environment (nature and nurture. They can’t figure it out because the nature is the same – genetically they are the same; and they are brought up in the same house – their nurture is the same. But these twins ended up having different preferences.
Allah answers this in the next ayah – 17:85
                Wa yas alunaka anirruh, qulirruhu min amri rabbi.
                They ask you about the ruh – the essence of the human being.
(Ruh – an Arabic word associated with rauh: joy, contentment, satisfaction: suggesting that there is something inside us that acts as the source of our happiness, the source of our contentment and it is distinct in each and every one of us. We can only know very little about it)
                If they ask you about ruh, tell them it is from the command of my master. (min amri rabi)
(A named scholar- I can’t catch it) He argued that there are two worlds of ALLAH’s doings.
1)      A’lamul Khalq – the world of creation
2)      A’lamul Amr – the world of command
With this argument, he suggests that ALLAH created this physical universe, in which there are certain laws that govern it. eg- it is dictated by time- when you plant a seed in the ground, it does not just pop up into a tree. There is a process by which it turns into a tree. A baby does not turn a man overnight, there is a process to it. This is the world of khalq – ALLAH makes things with tadarruj in the world of khalq. There is process and progression in the world of khalq.
In the world of command- where when ALLAH commands for something, it comes to full formation and perfection instantaneously. Eg – angles (comes from the world of amr).
The ruh, is from the world of command.
Quran, is from the world of command.
The unseen world – where things happen but not limited to time (by our definition of time); not limited to distance (by our definition of distance); they are not limited by process (like we think of process).
The world of command has its own different entity.
When amr is mentioned- it comes into being immediately (Yaasin)
                Inna maa amruhu idza araada syaian, an yakuu lalahu- kun, fa yakun.
These two worlds seem to be separated most of the time.
In us, as human beings, we actually have our physical growth – from a’lamul khalq – and our spiritual entity belongs to a’almul amr.
Prophets (components of a’lamul khalq) are teaching people – but their teachings come from a’lamul amr. The miracles that they are given, comes from a’lamul amr – breaks the a’lamul khalq; eg- fire stops burning in story of prophet Ibraheem a.s.
(Back to ayah 85) ALLAH says your ruh, belongs to a’lamul amr.
We know very little about the world of the command – angles, ruh etc. We know only what ALLAH tells us. Otherwise it is entirely unseen and unexperienced to us.
So the essence of this ayah is – there is something inside us that forms the essence of our personality; but yet we know about it very little. (Wa maa uu tii tum, minal ‘ilmi, illa qaliila – you have been given about knowledge, very little.)
There is something inside us that is so powerful, but we can’t even know about it ourselves.
(Think about it retrospectively) Our physical human brain, is not ruh. Even about this we only know very little. If we have very little knowledge about the things in the world of creation, so how can we know more about the world of command.
So, when ALLAH is teaching us that we have to go on in this expedition – when you work through your predisposition, you will discover more about yourself; YOU WILL NOT DISCOVER WHO YOU ARE UNTILL YOU PUT YOURSELVES TO WORK.
Young people nowadays, says they do not know what to do and keep asking for advices (but not working for it). (From the ayahs) Until you put yourself to work, you will not going to do discover who you are- you will not going to discover your strengths and weaknesses. STOP BEING AFRAID OF WORK. TRY! FAILING IS GOOD FOR YOU. It exposes the holes in the wall. It exposes on what you need to work on. It also exposes the few things that you are good at – that may you need to refine them even more. But that will not happen, until you grin it out. Until you throw yourself in the middle; in the mix.

Ar-Ruh is from the a’lamul amr, but this life that ALLAH has given us here, in which we can put ourselves to work and discover ourselves, is not an unlimited life. Between coming of age and sleep and become senile, we don’t have a lot of years to figure ourselves out; to put ourselves to work. So do not be afraid to try things. ALLAH has given us this incredible adventure in the world – do not be scared to try stuffs. (try things to achieve more!!) those who are afraid of failure, those are the kind of people who will only sit on the side lines and will not do anything in life. YOU HAV ETO STOP BEING AFRAID OF FAILURE. YOU HAVE TO WORK ON YOUR SYAAKILAH. You have to let go of that inhibition. Once you let go of it, amazing things will start to happen in your life. When you stop being depressed about failures.

Sunday, February 8

Virus virus ukhuwah

Akhirnya sy tulis dan tampal summary buku ni pada dinding bilik sy ^_^

Monday, February 2

kill your darling

it seems like each assessment would be the milestone that i need to hit before i can feel relieved by non-stop piles of responsibilities that need addressing urgently. it does not mean that no more needs completing following it, just less pressured to be precise.. but the piles are just a continuing lists that continues endlessly whilst i'm busy crossing out the one wrote earlier on. oh gosh! how did i manage to do it? idk, surely ALLAH was the one who helped and granted blessings for me to be able to do it and persevere.

i love you ALLAH. and please make me strong. take care of those who i can't whilst i am trying my best where i can. please never leave me cause idk where to find my strength anymore if you ignore me oh my Lord.


anyhow, last week i had usrah with my adik-adik and we tadabbur ayats that tell the story of prophet ibrahim and prophet ismail; the moment when prophet ibrahim dreamed that that he needs to slaughter his beloved son, prophet ismail. he consulted his son who asked him to follow the dream. one of my adik shared something that she read from ustaz pahrol's book; di mana Dia di hatiku?

what she shared reached the deepest part of my heart. the story, teaches us that even in halal things that we love, we should be aware of the possibilities that those halal things can be something that we have put more priorities over over love to ALLAH. worse, those halal things might have been the ones that had been stopping us to be the best servant to ALLAH. to fully submit and sacrifice for the love of ALLAH. muhasabah mode? :'