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Teman Harganya mahal? Sukarnya menyantuni manusia.. Why some people enjoy being mad at me? This is probably a statement of my disappointment because I feel people had prioritised their feelings of disappointment over trying to understand my circumstances. Am I trying to make statement to defend myself? May be. Oh Lord what does having sahabat means? I longed for a company who brings me closer to you. Together makes me believe in myself back again and feel supported cause I wish to help and support more people out there. Seek to understand, then to be understood. I think now, I am just trying to build a great wall of ice around me to be away from everybody. Cause now, it seems like I have internalised the fear of being disappointed and taken advantage. Will I be able to melt this back again? I don't know. Losses of good companies and shoulders to cry on had made the ice harder. Why do we choose to do things the hard way? Why do we choose to be reactively disappointe...

three days ago, i needed to start another countdown. 10 more days to another exam. i was scared because it is going to be osce that i have to re-sit. another osce for fourth year exam. one more osce. one more round. 10 stations. please oh Lord make it easy. i know nobody that can calm my worries down. i know no beings that can promise me sunshine. it is only You that will never turn me down. i know there will be hikmah behind everything that is happening now. please make me strong in my iman and my amal. please make me truthful in my words and my tawakkal. smile for the best future is always for the believers. whatever it is, alhamdulillah, thummalhamdulillah i passed my written exam. :') a news i am glad to hear. please help me to face this ya Rabb. two countdown at a time. seven days to exam, seven days to resit. ramadhan is tomorrow, i shall smile. exam in the blessed month of Quran. me, hamba.

Kalau Allah boleh bersabar dgn kita yg banyak berbuat dosa dalam keadaan sedar; Kalau teman-teman boleh bersabar dgn kita yg banyak dosa yang diulang-ulang dan dibutakan; Kenapa tidak kita lakukan yang sama pada yg lain? Apatah lagi mereka yg masih mentah dan tidak tahu apa itu salah, mungkin sahaja mereka hanya tersalah langkah;  Butuh kemaafan dan keikhlasan pimpinan kita yang kononnya lebih banyak pengalaman. 

Its just part of your life. Learn to live with it. Have faith in The Planner, you'll find a 'perfect' pace. 

Nobody is perfect and appreciating this, makes you perfect.  At least (in the path to be) a perfect servant to the Master of Perfection. 

Daie itu, lembut hatinya pada derita ummat; Sakitnya ummat, mencetus duka dihatinya; Menguatkan dia untuk terus setia, pada Allah Yang Maha Esa; Kucar-kacir masyarakat, menjadi beban fikirannya; Yang diinginkan hanya kebaikan buat mereka; Hatinya menangis memohon bantuan Tuhan Yang Berkuasa; Saat demi saat dia menghitung dirinya; Hai jiwa, mana mungkin daie yang banyak dosa mampu memikul dakwah yang mulia; Maka dia berusaha; Memuhasabah dirinya dan juga berubah tanpa alasan sia-sia. Terkadang kita terlalu memandang diri kita mulia. *exam ramblings after reading news back home :(

Its ten days to first paper of fourth year final exam with remaining three days of final placement. Please pray for me my lovely friends. Please pray that I will do it right. I am sometimes, a careless person. Please pray that I'll do things right. #rumahsakit #examiscoming