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Assalamualaikum Today I decided to write a little bit about this final journey of medical school, everyday. One of the reasons is because I think I need to let go some of my worries. But I do not want to talk over it to much so that I would not whine to much. So I'll talk to the wall of this blogger. It is the 3rd day of group discussion. We have been going through core conditions for the past two days, which I was happy with it. But one of us came over during the discussion and suggested that we do not focus only on preparing for the written exams as OSCE is something that deserves great attention as well from us. I do agree. I was a bit scared when I heard that cause OSCE has always been my biggest worry when it comes to exams. Going through the past exams and OSCE books I am worried. Could not really make up my mind on what to read now. Oh ALLAH, please keep me calm and guide us in our preparation. We really need your blessings. Wasalam. 

DISCOVER YOUR IDENTITY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tV4LiyUwSbg Sometimes ALLAH opens the door of opportunity but you refuse to walk through it. He opened it and you could have reaped a lot of reward from it, but you choose not walk through it and then you end up suffering; and then you end up blaming ALLAH instead. So now, if this is the case; everyone has a different lot in life –  a different set of challenges, a different set of opportunity, so the question is why? Why not all of us have the same thing? Why not all of us have the same challenges? – make it consistent. Next ayah (17:84) answers the question (why not all of us have the same set of challenges and reward?) Qul kullun ya’ malu ala syaakilatihi “Tell them, everyone should try to work” (When a mudhaari’ becomes a sifat, it actually means trying to do something) Everybody should try to work on their syaakilah. (Syaakil = form;  appearance of something or a mould of something. The shape of s...

Akhirnya sy tulis dan tampal summary buku ni pada dinding bilik sy ^_^

it seems like each assessment would be the milestone that i need to hit before i can feel relieved by non-stop piles of responsibilities that need addressing urgently. it does not mean that no more needs completing following it, just less pressured to be precise.. but the piles are just a continuing lists that continues endlessly whilst i'm busy crossing out the one wrote earlier on. oh gosh! how did i manage to do it? idk, surely ALLAH was the one who helped and granted blessings for me to be able to do it and persevere. i love you ALLAH. and please make me strong. take care of those who i can't whilst i am trying my best where i can. please never leave me cause idk where to find my strength anymore if you ignore me oh my Lord. KILL YOUR DARLING  anyhow, last week i had usrah with my adik-adik and we tadabbur ayats that tell the story of prophet ibrahim and prophet ismail; the moment when prophet ibrahim dreamed that that he needs to slaughter his beloved son, p...

A broken heart is a broken heart Some people just don't know how to fix what they have broken  Worst, they smashed it even harder  Sobs :'(((

Terkadang tak faham tindakan setengah manusia :(

Yesterday, was tiring I would say. Weird that people actually rest on weekend, but I would feel tired as I reach Sunday. Alhamdulillah, thumma Alhamdulillah. As this is really such a wonderful life experience that I am learning to appreciate and love then to mould it to be my principle of life. Which is to serve and rest just enough to keep on moving and fulfilling my purpose of life. I went for a walk my little sisters yesterday at a castle in Harrogate. A month before, I promised these little sisters that I would bring them for a wonderful weekend getaway after they finished exam. I planned to bring them to Belfast but after I made the offer, I needed to change the plan to actually fit in our monthly sisters qiyam and my own face to face sisters circle ie usrah (Most of my halaqat were done online cause my usrahmates are everywhere so it is quite hard to actually fix a time where everyone can actually attend in person for face to face halaqah.) We have no other weekend, so yeah......