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there had been a few things happened in my life these past few days or even past few weeks. i can't list them cause i don't remember all. but i know, i'm feeling sad as i am worried i might have done things wrongly or badly. i'm scared of sins i might do from my speech. i'm worried of sins in might do with my hands and feet. i'm extremely worried of sins i might do with my heart. things that are going around deep inside which i might miss. i am scared. and each time it happens, i feel vulnerable. i am even scared to talk to people.  something happened today, which became the climax of this drama, and i grabbed back the book i have read years ago. the book of taqwa. i read it, and my heart bleeds. my heart cries. emotional tornado. i felt so sad for the days that have left, i am sorry the wrongdoings. anyway, enough emotions.. this is what i made out of scanning through the little book back again.. *cry* ok dalam urusan apa yang kita kena bertaqwa...

What does it means to have family of mujahid mujahidah? It is to be truthful to ALLAH and return all the wonders to Him with having absolute faith in Him. Can we achieve that?

From my experiences, spring will be one of the great times for people to reflect upon our heart and our journey to meet death..  The effect will be more humangous to most heart because this is the one of the times for us to decide by OURSELF how do we want to fill OUR SPARE TIMES;  Yeah..  The time that we think is ours; The time that we think is given for us to relax and enjoy and chill out; are we going to opt for a humble yet great journey to know our Lord and ourself ? (note the word humble please because we will not be strong enough to face the journey if the heart is filled with the feeling of 'i'm good enough')  Going back to the journey of reflecting upon our heart and meeting death; It is a journey that I believe will only be appreciated by the traveller. Those who just watch, wait and see will not understand. Because to start the journey, you have to ambrace the feeling of wanting to return to Allah in the best state, to be hum...

Ini salah satu kisah favoritku, gak bosen berkali-kali bacanya. Jujur kalau baca kisah sangat menyentuh tentang Bilal saat Nabi Muhammad SAW meninggal ini, air mataku ngalir terus hehe. Apalagi sambil dengerin lagunya Maher Zain - The Chosen One. Walah :’)         Pada waktu dhuha di hari Senin 12 Rabi’ul Awal 11 H (hari wafatnya Rasulullah shalallahu alaihi wasallam) masuklah putri beliau Fathimah radhiyallahu anha ke dalam kamar Rasulullah shalallahu alaihi wasallam, lalu dia menangis saat masuk kamar Rasulullah Shalallahu ‘Alaihi Wassalam. Dia menangis karena biasanya setiap kali dia masuk menemui Rasullullah Shalallahu ‘Alaihi Wassalam, beliau berdiri dan menciumnya di antara kedua matanya, akan tetapi sekarang beliau tidak mampu berdiri untuknya. Maka Rasulullah Shalallahu ‘Alaihi Wassalam bersabda kepadanya: ”Mendekatlah kemari wahai Fathimah.” Beliaupun membisikkan sesuatu di telinganya, maka dia pun menangis. Kemudian beliau bersabda...